The doctor tells me I’m good to go– no more tests or appointments until my first ultrasound. But I’m skeptical. Should I request more blood draws? Should I keep a stock of pregnancy tests to take every now and then just to be sure things are still okay– just to be sure the baby’s still […]
On Finding the One
In the first long conversation I had with my husband I was currently interested (maybe obsessed is a better word) in Myers Briggs and the Four Temperaments. I probably spent thirty minutes asking him questions, analyzing his personality, and mapping it out for him in diagrams. Thankfully, he must not have thought I was too […]
When Mama is Sick
Two months ago I couldn’t hand my baby off to anyone. I couldn’t even put him in the car seat without him wailing. He wanted me by his side or holding him near constantly. And I obliged him because I could. For whatever reason, he needed me extraordinarily then, and that was just that. Mama […]
Why Home Videos Make Us Cry (And Why They Don’t Need To)
Yesterday my husband and I were trying to fix my computer and, in the process, stumbled upon a slideshow of home videos. We were sucked in. And as always seems to happen with home videos, they roused within me that deep longing feeling, that pervasive, aching bittersweetness. And as always, I asked myself why? I […]
Why Pity the Fool?
Tuesday night I waited anxiously by my cell phone for nine hours while my husband trekked home and eventually abandoned his stuck car in the snow and ice. It was a pretty stressful day. And we were some of the luckier ones. It was a pretty stressful day(s) for lots of people. And yet, their […]
How Babies Steal Your Freedom, And Why That’s Okay
If you’re a twenty-something (maybe even a thirty-something) you’re probably being told to wait as long as possible before having children. I’m not going to tell you that you shouldn’t wait—there are so many important factors that go into family planning—but I want to address one of the main reasons that scares so many of […]